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11-17-2002

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It was nippy in the morning when I took some laps with R. I did what I could to screw him on staying alive.

I went to visit at around 9:20. Roger got there around 9:45. He wanted to make sure whether I’ll get transfer or not. He also talked to Mom and she’s worried as usual. She wanted to visit me before I get moved. I told Roger to help her set an appointment after my parole hearing. I have to let her see for herself that I’m all right. Time went by quickly when Roger and I got into a conversation. He’s been a good brother to me. I’m a lucky guy.

I went back to the yard after the visit. I did some exercises with C and S. It was sunny and warm. I was out of breath from not working out for four days.

I ate and took a nap after yard. Then I wrote letters to J, K, B, J, S, G and S. It took up my whole evening to write letters. I have to wait till tomorrow to submit my first lesson of Statistic. I sent J a postcard. I haven’t heard from her for a couple of weeks.

I prayed that Mom’s doing well and that she was just venting about R’s evil ways. I don’t even want to get upset over her. I hope P had a good birthday. May he be well.

11-16-2002

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I didn’t get a visiting today. Maybe Roger will be here tomorrow.

I just finished studying chapter 2 and did the exercise. I’ll be ready to do my first lesson and submit it. That will be an accomplishment. I lay around all morning and afternoon. I had a fulfilling lunch. I have plenty of letters to write, but I felt lazy. I shot my orders to the lawyer. He’ll be excited to get the good news. Hopefully things will keep getting better for all of us.

May all my loved ones be well.

11-15-2002

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There was no yard this morning due to a search in B section. I felt tired, but I couldn’t sleep. My neighbor was lonely and stressed out so he kept talking. I didn’t do much but lay around.

I was called for a visit around ten thirty. I knew it was S. She got in around eleven and stayed till 12:20. She looked fragile today. She said that it was due to some health issues. I told her what I had been doing and kept her updated. She did the same. She asked for S whether she could write to Rico and I. I told her yes, but only support letters. I know she cares and she needs support. At one point, S and I didn’t speak. We just stared at each other. I was the first to break down. It felt a little awkward because I didn’t want to give out the wrong impression. I enjoyed her presence and appreciate her support. I’m sure when we see each other in person our conversation can be more intimate and we and address some deeper issues. She’s been up to see me three out of last four weeks. I don’t want her to feel obligated.

After the visit, I was able to call home. I talked to Mom and Dad for the first time in over five months. Mom was in the shower. The line got disconnected and I was able to call back. I told them not to worry and gave them a brief update. I asked Dad to shoot some bills to my friend. My box of letters got home. Mom said Roger will come see me. Hopefully it’ll be tomorrow. Sis’ busy. Mom’s tripping on R again. I don’t’ like to hear that she’s upset over her. It was a relief to talk to them.

I received letter from B. she was going to come see me, but KW suggested that she come after the hearing. He doesn’t want to complicate things. I know he’s looking out for me, but I don’t like that. I guess I don’t have a choice for now.

M sent me a postcard. She’s busy with school, she’ll write again when she’s settled down. I got the missing page of board report from S. H is still sending me the Coastal Post. The judge ordered an informal response on the latest write I filed. That’s good for me. I hope I’ll get a favorable decision soon.

Things went well today. I hope the blessings are forth coming. I relaxed for the rest of the day. I had a dream this morning that M filed a citizen’s complaint against N for his ambush tactics. It was a good sign that things are working for me. I just want to go home so I can help Mom and Dad and make a positive impact in society.

All my relations.

11-14-2002

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Mike came and went. He went to court this morning and went back to Avenal. I didn’t get the full scope on the condition there, but it didn’t sound good. I wonder when we’ll get back together.

I was able to stay consistent in studying my statistic. I’m making progress. I should get a lesson out on Sunday night. I went to library to do research and copy.

It’s good to go for a walk and see my friend. My lawyer filed a request for extension on informal reply. Hopefully I can stay here until all issues are resolved.

After I got back to the cell, I got some mail. I received a letter from S, J, K, M, A and M. S sent some photos and gave me some news on Rico. K wrote a 6 page letter sharing her past and present with me. She’s a talker with pen. She shared some private things with me. I appreciate her trust. A wrote to check in on me. J sent a copy of his support letter and words of encouragement. M sent a letter of support. She expressed her reasoning for asking me the tough question. I was a little hard on her. M sent a support letter and a shot note. She’s busy. Her grammar is tore up like mine.

I wrote to W and sent him my support letters. I wrote to CC and sent him the extension order. I wrote to J, A and M to thank them. I received the denial of counsel from Judge A. I received the stay copies of request for counsel and the latest writ. I sent the 602 on 3335 out again.

It’s been a busy afternoon and night. I enjoyed receiving letters from friends. I hope things will get better for all of us soon.

11-13-2002

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I spent a few hours studying statistic. I’m determined to finish my first lesson this month. I know I should be writing my article and reviewing my transcript. I’m not getting my priority straight.

I received a letter from W. He’ll come see me next week. We’ll talk about strategy to approach the parole hearing. I was hoping to receive letters from friends, but I didn’t. Then later in the evening, Officer B gave me a piece of mail from B. I was thinking about her. The C/O was reading my magazine. B sent me the latest issue of Mother Jones. Surprisingly I was allowed to have it. B had a short commentary in it. She said her friend M is interested in writing about my plight. She apologized for not writing and kept in touch. It’s good to hear from her. I wrote her and gave her an update

I sent P a Bday card, not much to say. I wrote to Mom just to say hi. I heard someone called my name. It sounded too familiar. Then I realized it was Mike. He’s lay over from going to court. I don’t’ know if I’ll be able to see him. What a trip!

The day was productive. I have to work on my article. I feel pretty good.