11-15-2002
There was no yard this morning due to a search in B section. I felt tired, but I couldn’t sleep. My neighbor was lonely and stressed out so he kept talking. I didn’t do much but lay around.
I was called for a visit around ten thirty. I knew it was S. She got in around eleven and stayed till 12:20. She looked fragile today. She said that it was due to some health issues. I told her what I had been doing and kept her updated. She did the same. She asked for S whether she could write to Rico and I. I told her yes, but only support letters. I know she cares and she needs support. At one point, S and I didn’t speak. We just stared at each other. I was the first to break down. It felt a little awkward because I didn’t want to give out the wrong impression. I enjoyed her presence and appreciate her support. I’m sure when we see each other in person our conversation can be more intimate and we and address some deeper issues. She’s been up to see me three out of last four weeks. I don’t want her to feel obligated.
After the visit, I was able to call home. I talked to Mom and Dad for the first time in over five months. Mom was in the shower. The line got disconnected and I was able to call back. I told them not to worry and gave them a brief update. I asked Dad to shoot some bills to my friend. My box of letters got home. Mom said Roger will come see me. Hopefully it’ll be tomorrow. Sis’ busy. Mom’s tripping on R again. I don’t’ like to hear that she’s upset over her. It was a relief to talk to them.
I received letter from B. she was going to come see me, but KW suggested that she come after the hearing. He doesn’t want to complicate things. I know he’s looking out for me, but I don’t like that. I guess I don’t have a choice for now.
M sent me a postcard. She’s busy with school, she’ll write again when she’s settled down. I got the missing page of board report from S. H is still sending me the Coastal Post. The judge ordered an informal response on the latest write I filed. That’s good for me. I hope I’ll get a favorable decision soon.
Things went well today. I hope the blessings are forth coming. I relaxed for the rest of the day. I had a dream this morning that M filed a citizen’s complaint against N for his ambush tactics. It was a good sign that things are working for me. I just want to go home so I can help Mom and Dad and make a positive impact in society.
All my relations.