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11-27-2002

» Reflections

The day went by fast. I received my active writs and transcript and reports. I received 3 letters from J. She wrote a support letter for me. I wrote a couple of pages to her about my denying of feelings. I’ll write more.

I received another order for Informal response from Judge A. I have 3 orders so far. December will be an interesting month in dealing with my Ad Seg issues. I received advice from the lawyer. He suggested that I raise my issues in the hearing and let BPT postpone it. He filed another motion for me. I appreciate his help.

“The creator promises that as we walk through the water they won’t overwhelm us and as we pass through the fire it won’t burn us. But we have to pass through these trails. What is important is that we don’t despair, don’t faint, don’t fear. Never let fear, pain or doubt overcome the love in your heart. It’s easy for your body to give into fatigue and pain and for your heart to grow weary and love  grow cold because of fear and doubt. Never focus on the obstacles or problems – look above to the heavens where our creator and his armies are ready to help us.” The words of a friend. I pray that our victories are near.

I had a dream that I went home and saw Dad and Mom. Mom was sleeping when I went in her room. I lay down next to her and she jumped up with surprise. Dad was cooking in the kitchen. The house was low. I was with 4 other people. Someone drove me home for the visit twice.

11-26-2002

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It started as a cold morning, turned into a sunny and warm one. I took some laps by myself. C didn’t come out due to a lockdown in East Block. I didn’t feel like working out. However, S and I got down anyway. We did our yoga routine and did some pushups. I did about 620 pushups. Then we ran 5 laps. It was nice.

I was scheduled to go the law library. I was a surprise. However, the library was cancelled due to an emergency count, I think. I wasn’t happy about that. I had to make some copies.

I took a nap. Then I read through my hearing transcript from last year. I want to get ready for the hearing. I didn’t touch the article.

I didn’t receive or send out any letters tonight. G did dropped me a note saying that US was not bombing Iraq.

T kept begging me to give him some stamps so he can smoke. I denied his requests. He has to earn his trust from me.

I asked the captain for a phone call and he said yes. However, he didn’t arrange for me to make it tonight.

I’m not in a creative mode. I need to do something about that.

May I be able to convince the BPT to give me a date. May I be home soon. May my family and friends be well.

11-25-2002

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I couldn’t get stated on my article. I was able to do some brainstorming and jotted down some notes. I don’t think I’ll be able to finish the article this week. I may have to wait till after the parole hearing. That might be a better time.

I went to my interview for the appeal on my 115. Mr. R read through my appeal in front of me and asked me some questions. He’s obviously biased. He had formed an opinion about my situation and guilty verdict. He did jot down some notes. I asked him to be fair and impartial. He said that he will and that I should get my appeal back soon. I didn’t feel good after the interview. He doesn’t care about the facts of my appeal and how they had violated my due process rights. I guess I had to take it to the court.

G came by. I told him what happened. He told me he talked to N. It’s clear that he’s in denial about his situation. I hope I can help lift his spirit up.

Bush started war today on Iraq.

I received a letter from A. He sent me a copy of this support letter. He wants to know any updates on my situation. I wrote him back and gave him an update. I appreciate his support. It’s good to have friend reached out and touched me.

I got some magazines from my neighbor next door. I have to get my acts together.

11-24-2002

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It was overcast in the early morning. I was informed that I had a visit at 9:10. I was excited and wondered who might visit me. However, when I got out there, my visit was cancelled. I don’t know who had set an appointment to see me. I guess I’ll find out later on. I was disappointed.

The sun peeped out briefly. I had a good workout with C and S. They’re good workout partners because they’re willing to listen and participate. We did yoga to warm up. Then we did arm windmills. We ran 5 laps, then 10 laps with mountain climbers, then 5 more laps. Then we did 100 single leg squats, 5 crossover lunges, 80 6 counts of burpees and 4 sets of 25 Jasiris. Then we warm down with yoga. I was sweating.

I ate and took a nap. Then I read. I didn’t write until after dinner. I finished the opening. I have a long way to go, but I got distracted by the book again. I plan to write it the next couple of days. I was able to write on my closing statement for the board hearing. I need to take advantage my time to prepare for the hearing. I haven’t touched my correspondence course since I sent my homework out. I don’t have much time left to study.

The lawyer reached out and touched me. I appreciate that gesture.

I’ll have to bear down. I’ll finish reading the book tonight. May the Gods look out for me. I’m ready.

11-23-2002

» Reflections

My plan to write my article was deferred due to my lack of discipline. Instead of writing, I read all day. I got hooked on reading the Kung Fu book. I didn’t follow through my plan. I take full responsibility.